it was not your fault but mine.

[AMANDA JANE STEVENS]

amanda jane stevens
seventeen - depressed - bisexual - hypersexual

"freak, weirdo, yeah i know i've heard it all before. i act like i don't care about that stuff, in fact i act like i don't care about a lot of stuff, but i do. i care about a lot more than i let on. i build up walls to keep people out, it's simple. i don't really want people to break them down, i put them up for a reason so please don't try. underneath all of that i'm kind and caring, sarcastic and witty, happy and also a little bit depressed. a little bit, slight understatement, depressed . i hate myself, i hate who i've become for the most part, and i hate who i am. i cut myself on my stomach, and if i can't find something to cut there i burn my tummy. there's scars, but i don't care, lots of people have issues here. i'm a nerd, i used to be happy, and i've been said to have a kick ass smile. i'm not really a huge fan of violence, but it's good on a movie. real life violence isn't cool, just so you know. i like to read, i like to draw, i like to take pictures. "

So basically she needs friends. Amanda's a pretty nice girl, she'll talk to you and seem happy about it. She needs people who will break down her walls and talk to her. She's a 'lil bit suicidal, hence the being here, but she doesn't seem like it. Amanda puts on a bit of a facade. She likes to take care of other people, it helps her not focus on herself. As for enemies, everyone has them. I can't guarantee that she'll hate them back, unless they're reaaaaallly mean to her and make her feel shitty. She's nice, but there's always the odd soul that's all "Boooo suicide" and what not. Love, love is yeah. She'll sleep around, but she isn't looking for a boo', not that I'd be opposed to it if someone wanted that. XD ALSO she's bisexual, so she likes dem ladees too.

[YURI MAY HAYASHI]

amanda & yuri

so i totally think that these two could be friends :3 they're both suicidal, so they'd have to run into one another at some point near the dormitories. they might also have some awesome bonding time, given yuri is also bisexual. i'd be totally open to them becoming friends, and the two becoming potential LOVERS romantic partners if it worked out alright :3 yuri is a tiiiiny bit depressed as well, so i think they'd have a lot to talk about. she cuts herself as well, so more to relate to xD anyway, your thoughts? :3

[AMANDA JANE STEVENS]

yuri&amanda

friends sounds pretty good. c8 i mean that would make the most sense. i feel like she'd be wary to be with someone who is also suicidal. i think she'd be afraid to make a boo-boo with what she said. however, we could see what happens. c; relating on cutting would be good too. n__n

[EMILIE RANA ABENDROTH]

emilie and amanda

I have Emilie here who is bipolar, borderline psychotic/BPD and hypersexual. She came to Markham because her mother didn't want to deal with Emilie's variant behaviour even though Emilie was in the process of moving out to move in with her best guy friend. She's comfortable with who she is but she's got so many walls up in front of her now that she's in Markham especially because she acts spiteful a lot and she tends to make sure that she takes her medication so that no one sees all sides of her. Without her medication she can be quite depressed as she's still upset about her father's death and she doesn't want people to see that because she is always a strong individual. Also part of those walls is that she's generally nice to everyone she meets while inside her head she's finding reasons not to like a person, the bad things about them. I think with Emilie and Amanda is they start out friends because Emilie's nice to people and so is Amanda but then one day Emilie's on her medications and they get into a fight and Emilie ends up spilling what she really thinks of Amanda even though there are more good things about Amanda that Emilie may like but Emilie is quite spiteful.

[EDGAR LUCIUS JAMES]

Edgar & Amanda!

Edgar's the Asylum's local flirt. He's a suicidal 17 year old who has been caught in the attempt twice. He's a bit witty and would most likely find Amanda to be a great person.

Since he hates himself he'd probably attempt to make friends with Amanda. He's focus on getting her to see herself as beautiful and as a brilliant girl. I could see these to being best friends. Edgar needs an actually female BFF almost as bad as he needs a male one.

[AMANDA JANE STEVENS]

emilie&amanda

that sounds interesting. i like it, i like it a lot. when she blows up at amanda it will make her feel like absolute shit. she'd be pretty sad and confused. she might wander back and ask her what she did to make her hate her or something like that. she's real sensitive. XD

edgar&amanda

that works. n___n she'd need someone to make herself feel a little better. she'd try to do the same to him. they could also be snuggle buddies just because i really wanted to use "cuddle buddies".

[EMILIE RANA ABENDROTH]

emilie and amanda

Emilie wouldn't care if someone is depressed or if she hurts someones feelings. She really has no regards to other people's feelings most of the time. But if they're her friends then if they're in the dumps she'll comfort them. But those are only her close friends. Oh, and she doesn't apologise in any form and she might explain why she blew up at Amanda. So do you want to thread them as being friends first?

[CHASE REBBECCA ROBERTS]

it doesn't matter to me. n_n my posts probably won't
be very long. ;c

[EDGAR LUCIUS JAMES]

Cuddle buddies sounds adorable! I'd be totally up for that!

[CHASE REBBECCA ROBERTS]

oookay-doke. c: